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[flyingtrapeze]

None of us are just that, even if that's what you think.

You're right, I don't have what it takes. I don't want to have it. One day maybe I'll figure out how to talk to you without you lashing out at me.

[red_hoods]

Maybe it doesn't bother me that much because I'm fine with my actions.So if that's what you want to boil me down to, that's fine.

maybe i just don't need this shit shoved down my throat even when I'm trying to do things your way. don't you think?

[flyingtrapeze]

I told you, I think you're more than that. You're the one who wants to boil the rest of us down.

Then what should I do instead? What reaction are you hoping for so I can just do that in the future?

[red_hoods]

haven't given me many reasons not to.

i'm not hoping for anything. it's always going to turn out like this no matter what I do. What are you even bitching at me for anymore? I didn't kill anyone.

[flyingtrapeze]

Okay. Great. Forget it, Jason.

[red_hoods]

yeah. Its easier that way, isn't it.

I don't think you see me as more than anything. You just don't want to deal with me.

[flyingtrapeze]

Jason.

WHAT. DO YOU. WANT.

[red_hoods]

Nothing, Dick.
I just thought we could talk.

[flyingtrapeze]

We are! And literally nothing I say is good enough for you!

[red_hoods]

you're the one coming at me with lectures.
do you know what it's like to have to shift your entire outlook on things and have everyone around you still give you shit for it? No. Because all of this comes naturally to you. You're the goddamn golden boy.

I thought talking to you would make this easier. i don't know why.
look, you're right, let's just forget it.

[flyingtrapeze]

I am not lecturing you! I'm just trying to explain to you that I DO care, even if I'm not out taking a gun to every murderer's head! Because apparently you think I get dressed up and go out every night for fun!

And I don't know what that's like, you're right. You've had experiences I've never had that have shaped you in ways I don't really understand. But we'll never hear each other if we just put each other on the defensive all the time.

[red_hoods]

I didn't say that.

old habits die hard, i guess.

[flyingtrapeze]

You said you don't believe I care, which is as good as.

I mean, do you hear me blowing my stack from your side of town?? I'm like Yosemite Sam over here.

[red_hoods]

we just see things differently, that isn't going to change, no matter how many rules
I follow.

yeah, i hear you loud and clear. that's never been the problem.

[flyingtrapeze]

This conversation is making my brain leak out of my ears.

[red_hoods]

don't worry, it's over.

I'll talk to someone else. Or. Not. Im good.

[flyingtrapeze]

Great, glad for you, then.

[red_hoods]

[ Jason stares down at his phone. He never should have said a damn thing to Dick. What was he thinking? Dick says he wants to see past whatever, that he can see more to Jason than the sum of his actions , but that doesn't seem to be true.

He just wanted to talk to his... whatever Grayson is. He doesn't have anyone else to talk to.]

Yeah. It's real great.

Anyway, I'll let you get back to your superhero-ing.

[flyingtrapeze]

[It doesn't sit right with Dick to get offended and drop a conversation. It never sits well with him. But Jason in particular has always been good at hitting him where it hurts and and carrying on with zero understanding. It's hard to be patient. It's hard to remember Jason was both robbed of time to mature and forced to grow up too quickly.

He looks down at his phone and does his best to suck it up and summon the same patience he has for Tim and Damian.]

Okay.

For what it's worth, I'm sorry I got defensive and made it about myself. Whatever you might think about me, I do believe in you. I hope I can prove it to you one day.

[red_hoods]

[ Jason is pretty sure the only person who truly believes in him is himself- and even that is highly questionable most of the time.

Jason is good at hitting everyone where it hurts. It's a defense mechanism he's honed pretty well over the years, only now, it doesn't work so well for him when he's not actually trying to push people away so forcefully. ]

it's not a big deal, grayson. don't worry about it, i'm completely fine.

[flyingtrapeze]

I'm not worried. I just want you to know that.

[Or, at least, he wants Jason to hear it.]

[red_hoods]

Yeah. I guess.

I'd rather make it a habit to talk to you than not. That's mostly what this was about anyway.

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing.

[flyingtrapeze]

You have interesting methods for making it habit, I guess.

You know, I'm not THAT hard to talk to.

[red_hoods]

its not like you're winning in this department either.

You're harder to talk to than you think.

[flyingtrapeze]

I can't fight you there.

But everyone talks to me!